“Kilig”---- My current or recent feeling---An electrifying feeling towards a person akin to a chemical reaction that explodes the moment a fanciful appreciation happens
Why do I need to do things that would make me happy, and at the same time, make me sad? Why the need to show a person you care when you don’t even know if they felt the same way. But still, you want to do it again and again. Until you step back, look at the whole picture and realize that at the end of it all, you may never win and you don’t lose either.
Things may not be the way you wanted it to be but as what a friend recently told me, you don’t have to have the things you like to enjoy them. Hay. That was a simple knock in the head for me. It is true. Why bother to have something you really can’t have? But sometimes, when you seemed close or getting close to the things you like, you tend to be attached to it. No matter how you deny it, how hard you try to discount the truth or the feelings, the more you are pulled toward it. And it would take a lot of effort and energy to really help you detached from it. But why detached? Why not just continue and take things the way they were and how it should be? Again it’s hard. Feelings would eventually crash as we try to hold back and at the same time be cool about it.
Life is short, like what most people say. Better enjoy the present than regret what you could have done. Even though it hurts, at least you tried. Sometimes or most of the time, pain is part of the whole experience. You can’t escape from it. It’s there. It’s how you would react towards it that would make one a better person with a solid character and spirit. Life has taught us a lot of things that none of the books can give. Our existence gives us the lessons we need to equip ourselves with.
Thanks to the people, the experiences (bad or good) and the pain and happiness that have crossed my path.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Sunday TV programs
Last Sunday, we had a Filipino lunch at a friend's house. Sunday here in Cambodia is like a Family day. After mabusog sa kakalafang, we watched TFC! what else! We have to be updated on what's happening back home.
12 noon-- ASAP
We saw our ever so cuteness na mga fafa! ahem..ahem... i know that we have to wake up from this surreal world and start living in reality. YES we are living in a real world. But who couldn't resist the charms of John Lloyd and Piolo. Hahaha! Pathetic. To justify, they are a few of the people that we miss. Only when I left the country that I understood the OFW's clamor for these kind of shows.
2pm-- CSI
Since we are not teeny boppers anymore, we decided not to watch Your Song and Love Spell. Gone are the days that I fought with my dad just to see Patrick G on TV (Tabing Ilog days).
We caught up CSI Miami. The episode showed the suspect leading a seminar for guys to build up their confidence in picking up girls. WHATDA!? Is this for real? Whatever, I just wanna know how they solved the crime.
3pm-- Your Song
Since we don't want to miss the start of the buzz and we got nothing to watch, we opted to change the channel back to TFC. It was YOUR SONG starring Vhong and Toni. Keber na sa set up, we just want to laugh that afternoon. In the end, it was worth watching because of a few lines that Toni said. " Life is short. Gusto ko siya and I will go for it." aaaaaaawwww!! Sign ba ito? So after that episode, whatever we do, we always end it with the line"Life is short"
4pm-- The Buzz
Soooooooooooo excited about Boy Abunda's fashion statement for the week, we all gathered in front of the TV. Aside from that, gigil na kami sa latest chizms sa Pinas, which confirms na tsismosa tayo o kami. hehehe. Anyway, the show's main subject is SUKDULAN. After learning that, we were glued on TV and eager to know what were the extreme showbiz chikas. PERO!! PERO!! anong sukdulan sa pag-aaway ng 2 teen stars over a guy? sa pagsusugal daw ulit ni Jay M? sa pagkatulak kay KL sa glass cabinet which led him to the hospital to get stitches on his 2 hands (outpatient effect)? sa napapabalitang pagkabuntis daw ni Paw Diaz? sa paghihirap daw ni Snooky? ANUBEH! Sukdulan ba yun?
6pm
We headed home disappointed.
Good thing we got left overs to sustain us till the rest of the month.
12 noon-- ASAP
We saw our ever so cuteness na mga fafa! ahem..ahem... i know that we have to wake up from this surreal world and start living in reality. YES we are living in a real world. But who couldn't resist the charms of John Lloyd and Piolo. Hahaha! Pathetic. To justify, they are a few of the people that we miss. Only when I left the country that I understood the OFW's clamor for these kind of shows.
2pm-- CSI
Since we are not teeny boppers anymore, we decided not to watch Your Song and Love Spell. Gone are the days that I fought with my dad just to see Patrick G on TV (Tabing Ilog days).
We caught up CSI Miami. The episode showed the suspect leading a seminar for guys to build up their confidence in picking up girls. WHATDA!? Is this for real? Whatever, I just wanna know how they solved the crime.
3pm-- Your Song
Since we don't want to miss the start of the buzz and we got nothing to watch, we opted to change the channel back to TFC. It was YOUR SONG starring Vhong and Toni. Keber na sa set up, we just want to laugh that afternoon. In the end, it was worth watching because of a few lines that Toni said. " Life is short. Gusto ko siya and I will go for it." aaaaaaawwww!! Sign ba ito? So after that episode, whatever we do, we always end it with the line"Life is short"
4pm-- The Buzz
Soooooooooooo excited about Boy Abunda's fashion statement for the week, we all gathered in front of the TV. Aside from that, gigil na kami sa latest chizms sa Pinas, which confirms na tsismosa tayo o kami. hehehe. Anyway, the show's main subject is SUKDULAN. After learning that, we were glued on TV and eager to know what were the extreme showbiz chikas. PERO!! PERO!! anong sukdulan sa pag-aaway ng 2 teen stars over a guy? sa pagsusugal daw ulit ni Jay M? sa pagkatulak kay KL sa glass cabinet which led him to the hospital to get stitches on his 2 hands (outpatient effect)? sa napapabalitang pagkabuntis daw ni Paw Diaz? sa paghihirap daw ni Snooky? ANUBEH! Sukdulan ba yun?
6pm
We headed home disappointed.
Good thing we got left overs to sustain us till the rest of the month.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
VIETNAM TRIP
after 5 months of waiting, I had my first out of Cambodia trip. Hehehe!I was really excited to go to Vietnam and eat at Jollibee and KFC! Yes! OA na ito pero I really miss Jollibee's chicken joy and gravy! waaaaaaaahhh! and KFC's spicy chicken and gravy. Oh well, mejo dissapointing ang gravy nila. Totally different sa Manila especialyl that its not unlimited. GRRRR!!! THeir coleslaw was also bland. Though they have big servings, eh kung walang lasa, useless.
Our trip started on a Wednesday. We travelled by bus at approximately 7 hrs (including immigration checking) from Cambodia to Vietnam. With a cheap fare of $13 inclduing immigration taxes, water and cold towel, carry na!
We stayed at Cris' apartment. She's a Filipina wo's working as a Director at SGV Vietnam. Her new place is so cool and cheap. She got 3 big rooms, nice kitchen and 2 bathrooms. Winner ang balay! After arriving, we got our plans ironed out. Rest on our first night, Ho CHi Minh Tour and KFC visit on our 2nd day, travel to Dalat (Baguio effect) on our 2nd night, Dalat day tour- 3rd day, go back to Ho Chi Minh 3rd night, last day shopping, tour at Ho Chi Minh and dinner at Jollibee on our 4th day. Whew! It looks tiring but at the same time, exciting. And I'm proud to say that we have succeeded in our itineraries. hehehe!
Just a proof, click the link to view my photos http://www.flickr.com/photos/karengrace/
Our trip started on a Wednesday. We travelled by bus at approximately 7 hrs (including immigration checking) from Cambodia to Vietnam. With a cheap fare of $13 inclduing immigration taxes, water and cold towel, carry na!
We stayed at Cris' apartment. She's a Filipina wo's working as a Director at SGV Vietnam. Her new place is so cool and cheap. She got 3 big rooms, nice kitchen and 2 bathrooms. Winner ang balay! After arriving, we got our plans ironed out. Rest on our first night, Ho CHi Minh Tour and KFC visit on our 2nd day, travel to Dalat (Baguio effect) on our 2nd night, Dalat day tour- 3rd day, go back to Ho Chi Minh 3rd night, last day shopping, tour at Ho Chi Minh and dinner at Jollibee on our 4th day. Whew! It looks tiring but at the same time, exciting. And I'm proud to say that we have succeeded in our itineraries. hehehe!
Just a proof, click the link to view my photos http://www.flickr.com/photos/karengrace/
Thursday, October 05, 2006
while signing up for this blog, i was actually thinking if i have things to write about. I was not really a writer not even a writing major but i love to share stories. But after last night, it was clear to me why I created this blog.
Maan and I went home before 7pm. Unforunately, her car had it's usual sickness of getting an overheat. Luckily we were home when it happened. We opened the hood and put pails of water to the reserve plastic tank. Smoke was everywhere. After a few minutes of cooling down, we went up to eat dinner.
I was not really feeling well that time and decided not to eat. But when I saw the Doritos, hmmmm...it was a different story. Hehehe. So we both sat down and started devouring the chips. Our small dining area is just across our veranda, which is always open so we could get enough dose of fresh air. While we were chatting, we heard someone shouting " CHAIO! CHAIO!" Not really sure of the spelling of the word but that's how he we heard it. We got up and went out in our veranda to see what was happening. From there we saw the man shouting and running. A few people we're also running behind him. From the look of it, someone was chasing a robber.
Across our apartment was a house who has a bigger veranda than ours. At the time of the incident, a man in his 40s went out in his veranda holding something on his hand. I can also hear a woman's voice talking to the man. Since I can't understand what was really happening, I just observed. I was looking at the man and then I saw it--he was holding a gun and suddenly he released a warning shot in the air. Maan and I hurriedly closed the veranda door and ran to her room but since we felt that it's still not safe (imagining that a bullet can still pass through the windows), we hid in her bathroom. She was shaking and I was shocked. "First time ko makakita ng ganun. Normally sa news ko lang nakikita. San ka pa, dito pa sa Cambo ko naranasan ito. Afraid!!"We stayed in the bathroom for 10 minutes until we realized that it was quiet again. We bravely opened our door, checked the veranda and we saw kids on the street again. Now I know it's okay.
After the incident, we learned that our neighbor is a policeman. But the thing is, I don't know If I would be grateful for that. Having a policeman as a neighbor can be scary sometimes. Maybe because after what I saw. It was like anytime he can just shot anyone, anywhere, anytime.
They say these things are actually normal here. It can literally happen anywhere and anytime. Since we are foreigners of this country, we are defenseless. There's nothing we can do but to try to move away from incidents like this, back out on a fight, be silent and maybe the worst of all, give in.
Maan and I went home before 7pm. Unforunately, her car had it's usual sickness of getting an overheat. Luckily we were home when it happened. We opened the hood and put pails of water to the reserve plastic tank. Smoke was everywhere. After a few minutes of cooling down, we went up to eat dinner.
I was not really feeling well that time and decided not to eat. But when I saw the Doritos, hmmmm...it was a different story. Hehehe. So we both sat down and started devouring the chips. Our small dining area is just across our veranda, which is always open so we could get enough dose of fresh air. While we were chatting, we heard someone shouting " CHAIO! CHAIO!" Not really sure of the spelling of the word but that's how he we heard it. We got up and went out in our veranda to see what was happening. From there we saw the man shouting and running. A few people we're also running behind him. From the look of it, someone was chasing a robber.
Across our apartment was a house who has a bigger veranda than ours. At the time of the incident, a man in his 40s went out in his veranda holding something on his hand. I can also hear a woman's voice talking to the man. Since I can't understand what was really happening, I just observed. I was looking at the man and then I saw it--he was holding a gun and suddenly he released a warning shot in the air. Maan and I hurriedly closed the veranda door and ran to her room but since we felt that it's still not safe (imagining that a bullet can still pass through the windows), we hid in her bathroom. She was shaking and I was shocked. "First time ko makakita ng ganun. Normally sa news ko lang nakikita. San ka pa, dito pa sa Cambo ko naranasan ito. Afraid!!"We stayed in the bathroom for 10 minutes until we realized that it was quiet again. We bravely opened our door, checked the veranda and we saw kids on the street again. Now I know it's okay.
After the incident, we learned that our neighbor is a policeman. But the thing is, I don't know If I would be grateful for that. Having a policeman as a neighbor can be scary sometimes. Maybe because after what I saw. It was like anytime he can just shot anyone, anywhere, anytime.
They say these things are actually normal here. It can literally happen anywhere and anytime. Since we are foreigners of this country, we are defenseless. There's nothing we can do but to try to move away from incidents like this, back out on a fight, be silent and maybe the worst of all, give in.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
FIRST BLOG
today is the birth of this blog.
it took me sometime to decide on coming up with my own, though i've been using my friendster account to write whatever. but due to some chenelyn boredom eklavu in my life, i thought it would be better to have a separate blog. at least, this one is more accessible to my friends. just one click and they'll be able to read updates about me.
it took me sometime to decide on coming up with my own, though i've been using my friendster account to write whatever. but due to some chenelyn boredom eklavu in my life, i thought it would be better to have a separate blog. at least, this one is more accessible to my friends. just one click and they'll be able to read updates about me.
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