Random Thoughts version 1

“Kilig”---- My current or recent feeling---An electrifying feeling towards a person akin to a chemical reaction that explodes the moment a fanciful appreciation happens

Why do I need to do things that would make me happy, and at the same time, make me sad? Why the need to show a person you care when you don’t even know if they felt the same way. But still, you want to do it again and again. Until you step back, look at the whole picture and realize that at the end of it all, you may never win and you don’t lose either.

Things may not be the way you wanted it to be but as what a friend recently told me, you don’t have to have the things you like to enjoy them. Hay. That was a simple knock in the head for me. It is true. Why bother to have something you really can’t have? But sometimes, when you seemed close or getting close to the things you like, you tend to be attached to it. No matter how you deny it, how hard you try to discount the truth or the feelings, the more you are pulled toward it. And it would take a lot of effort and energy to really help you detached from it. But why detached? Why not just continue and take things the way they were and how it should be? Again it’s hard. Feelings would eventually crash as we try to hold back and at the same time be cool about it.

Life is short, like what most people say. Better enjoy the present than regret what you could have done. Even though it hurts, at least you tried. Sometimes or most of the time, pain is part of the whole experience. You can’t escape from it. It’s there. It’s how you would react towards it that would make one a better person with a solid character and spirit. Life has taught us a lot of things that none of the books can give. Our existence gives us the lessons we need to equip ourselves with.

Thanks to the people, the experiences (bad or good) and the pain and happiness that have crossed my path.